Wednesday, August 24, 2011

I have Asperger's

I guess it was about a year ago that it was first suggested to me that my daughter might have Asperger Syndrome. Over the past year I have learned a lot about Autism Spectrum Disorders, specifically Asperger's, I'm still learning as I go. The more I learned the more I realized the diagnosis fit my daughter and my son.

Eventually I started seeing signs in myself. I debated for a long time weather or not to get tested. I'm 32 years old, really what difference does it make at this point in my life. I am the way I am. Ultimately, my curiosity won. I wanted to know and I figured it would give me answers to why I am the way I am. Along with why both my children have Asperger's.

I got my test results on August 2, it's official, I have Asperger Syndrome. I'm an Aspie.
I have debated weather to share this with you all or not, but the blogging world in a since, is part of my support system. Maybe someone out there knows what I am going through.

This is something I have had my whole life and didn't know. Learning this now, was a little hard to wrap my head around. I wasn't surprised when I got the diagnosis. I had already assumed I was going to, during testing I was told I showed signs. However, still, when it became official... I had a hard time at first. Its still kinda hard. I am just now learning that I'm not "just like everyone else". Now I know WHY I have always had such a hard time meeting new people. It is so much more than me just being shy.

I get to joke with my husband now because he is the only "Neurotypical" one in our household. He is the odd Man out, LOL!

I keep thinking of the TV show Parenthood. There was an episode towards the end of last season when the son found out he has Asperger's. He asked his parents if they had it, or if his sister had it?
When it comes time to tell my children about there diagnosis, I will be able to relate on a completely different level. If I am asked that same question, I can answer, yes.

The Blogger spell checker does not know how to spell Asperger, every time I type it I get that little squiggly red line underneath... I keep double checking it thinking I spelled it wrong...



  1. I am a huge fan of Parenthood, we (hubby and I) can relate to the parents of Max! I see us in his parents. Like when his dad took him to the amusement park, we're always worrying if our son will have a tantrum.

    My son has Autism. He was diagnosed in July of last year. It's hard to go out in public because we're paranoid of how he will react to "every day things." Although, we do go to the grocery store and he just loves riding in the cart! LOL He loves his routines too.

  2. Thank you so much for your brave share! There is a site called Accepting and Embracing Autism at that you might find beneficial. I'm interested in learning more so I'll be reading your future posts on this topic with great interest!

  3. Thanks so much for sharing - I hope it helped you to put it out there. ;)

    I ADORE the show Parenthood. That episode broke my heart for a minute, but just for a minute. :)

    I hope you have a wonderful day! :)

  4. I've often wondered about myself too. Both of my boys have been diagnosed on opposing ends of the spectrum. I'm not sure if I want to do the testing myself yet. There are a lot of traits there, especially as I get older. My husband often says, "You are just like the boys!" when I do or say something.

  5. It is interesting how you learned of your own diagnosis after knowing so much about Aspergers already, whereas most folks have to mad scramble after the fact.And while you may not be "just like everyone else", you get to "have" and "live" the wonderful things.(maybe that sentence made sense?) Thanks for sharing!

  6. Hey, I'm pretty certain you're a pretty awesome Aspie! My brother is an Aspie, too... He started a foundation called Autistic Advancement... You can check him out at Anyways, I hope you're doing well! No reason why this should get you down..... God has blessed you with a unique mind... Embrace it!!! You are fearlessly and wonderfully made.... Psalm 139: 14..... :) Olivia

  7. There is a book called "Freaks, Geeks & Asperger Syndrome", written by Luke Jackson (at the time, he was about 13 and has Asperger's Syndrome). It's a great book to read for a little bit of insight, and you may find things you can relate to also. I bought the book after discovering that a boy in one of my classes had Aspergers. It's written in a humourous, easy to read style, so maybe one you could read with your husband and family.
    Thanks for sharing your story,

    Visting from vB

  8. I hope the diagnosis turns out to be a good thing and will end up being a help to you, both personally & as a parent.

  9. I was finally diagnosed bipolar on July 1st, 2004 right before my 40th birthday. One of the most liberating days of my life. No more trying to figure out what was wrong with me or why I was the way I was. I talk about it a lot....trying to get people to understand that not all illnesses are visible to the naked eye. I've been really stable and med compliant although I do have slight swings. Like right now, I am a wee bit manic. I've been commenting on posts all over the internet and won't shut up on Facebook. It's caused from lack of sleep because my insomnia was in overdrive last night. But, at least I'm not out booking another vacation. Which I did 3 times in 2 months once.

  10. I'm glad I found your blog through the hop today. I admire you for being honest and true to yourself and to your children. I don't know what Asperger is but I will definitely look it up now. Thanks for sharing your story. I hope you and your family have a great weekend! (It's Friday noon here already lol)

  11. I have bi-polar and Asperger's disorder. You're not alone! =) This is my favorite site so far that has helped me understand Asperger's more, it's great because it focuses on the female side of it.

  12. Thanks for the brave share i often wonder myself as i look at my son and all the issues he has and think i can be the same way too. We are waiting for an appointment for sensory processing not that i dont know the answer already but we do need a therapy direction and we were diagnosed with pdd-nos but im sure as he gets older(only 3 now) he may be aspergers he is showing alot of signs now


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