Sunday, July 17, 2011

Missing Him... So Much

Deployments Suck...
Although luckily this one has so far been going fast! Summer break is already almost over, school starts on August 1st.
Toward the end of August will be the half way point! I'm not sure why, but I always feel better when we reach the half way mark in Deployments. I tell myself, I have made it this far, it's only downhill from here! Once the number of days he has been gone is larger than the number of days till he gets home, I feel better. Is that weird? Every deployment and separation I have looked forward to the half way mark.

It really is true, it's the little things you miss... I find myself smelling his clothes in our closet. I steal his t-shirts and wear them to sleep in. If were not going anywhere that day, I sometimes use his body-wash or cologne so I smell like him. I have been wearing his wedding ring on a necklace just to feel closer to him. I count the days in between phone calls. I hate being alone every evening, night after night. I don't mind being alone sometimes, but after a while it just gets lonely.

The kids say they miss daddy and it breaks my heart. We all need him and miss him so much. Sadly they are used to him being gone... So am I, I may get used to it, but it doesn't make it any easier, I just now know how to deal with it. How not to fall to pieces every time he leaves. How to hold myself together and keep going. To keep things as normal as possible for my kids and my own sanity. I know how to be a single parent.


Trisha

12 comments:

  1. I am right there with you sweets. That will be our halfway point too. :-)
    sairforcespouse.com

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  2. Thinking of you!! Not much longer and you will wake up and he will be right next to you!!

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  3. I just want to say Thank you for what you, your husband, and your family sacrifice for the citizens in this country. Hoping your time apart goes quickly and your time together is magic.

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  4. This post broke my heart. I feel so much empathy for you. I cannot imagine the sacrifices you and others like you make. Not sure it helps but thank you to you and your hubby.
    Popped by from the blog hop and glad I did. Feel free to stop by if you get a chance. Kim
    http://losingitlikealunatic.blogspot.com/
    http://cravingsofalunatic.blogspot.com/

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  5. So glad you've made it almost half way! Hang in there! Hugs!

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  6. I found you on the monday hop, i hope you'll come check me out
    http://www.mommatotallyinlove.com/

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  7. I can't imagine what you go through overtime he leaves! Hang in! Like you said half way there!
    Stephanie~

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  8. hi! I am a new follower via the military blog hop. I have to say reading all of you ladies stories about deployments really makes me feel how lucky I am to have my fiance home. You all are such strong ladies and I really look up to you for having to go through it. I hope this remaining time will go quickly for you and him!

    please feel free to give me a visit at http://futuremills.blogspot.com/


    x's and o's

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  9. AWww..i am sure it is hard..my prayers are definitely with you and your family!

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  10. It must be so hard for you and your little ones....I can't even imagine.....

    My hubs works on oil rigs so we don't see him sometimes for months and he comes home only for 7 days in between and that is stressful and we miss him awfully lot.....I can't even compare it with where your husband is...

    My thoughts are with you hoping that this second half will go very fast for all of you...

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  11. Those are wonderful pictures - thanks so much for sharing. I'm your latest follower. Nice to meet you. Hope you can stop by some time.

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  12. I know how you feel. I was once a Military Wife Mom for 11 years! It was the most rewarding, exciting, and hardest part of my life. It takes a lot to run a family with a missing member some place far away serving their country. It seems like everything that ever goes wrong always happens at this time too. My son had about 10 seizures when he was a baby/toddler and every one of them happened when my husband was gone! The military forgot to pay us once for three months and that happened when he was gone. What a mess that was. So I know it is hard but hang in there. Sleep on his side of the bed, cuddle his pillow and stay strong Mamma! If you did it before you can do it again.

    Saving Your Green

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