Sorry I have been MIA. I just needed a break, I lost the desire to write, anything... I always have a hard time in the beginning of a deployment (who wouldn't right). How could it possibly be easy.
It's not, deployments suck. The first month is always tough while I adjust to everything. While I get used to being a single parent. This is our 8th deployment in 9 years. I guess I have learned how to deal with it better (I don't cry myself to sleep at night anymore), but it doesn't get any easier. If anything it got harder because our first deployment I didn't have any kids yet, I was pregnant. I only had myself to take care of. Then there were a few where I only had one child. This is the 4th deployments where I have had two children to take care of. I'll manage, I always do.
Luckily I have a good friend who will help me out if I need it.