I am so tired of doing it all alone. I don't have family here to help me. I only have 1 friend and she has two kids of her own.
I just get so lonely. What I wouldn't give to at least be able to call him when I wanted to. Pick up the phone and have a meaningful conversation that lasts more than 15 minutes. Be able to call when I needed to, not wait around wondering when he will be able to call me again.
When hes gone, I don't eat well. I don't sleep well, I stay up way too late all the time, I hate sleeping alone. I miss him and need him home. Only 148 days to go.....
I could use a hug.